March 22, 2009♥
okay, so finally i've decided to explain everything in here, my blog.
I won't be such a faker by saying there's no hard feelings, because I know there is (between you and me). I know you don't like me that much and won't say it to my face. So, there's this point where i have to tell you about this, because it's getting a little annoying.
First, i have to say sorry first and i'm not trying to start a fight between us because it's just silly to do that. I just try to tell you a reason why i play (or use) my phone eveytime/anytime/everywhere.
Okay, here we go. The first reason. You probably know i've been wanting that phone since 6 months ago when no one has it yet. I know all about the application, I've seen some videos of it on YouTube, and i've been praying everyday since then. I asked my mom about it and she said NO. Why? because it's waay too expensive, and yes i cried that day but i try to move on and wait. I keep telling my self that i'll have it one day, because i watched The Secret a lot so i use their 'Law Of Attraction' if you know what i mean. Then after (probably) 3 months i've lost a little interest on that phone but i still want it, and my mom asked me if i still wanted it and of course i said YES! then after that day i keep asking for it, and the problem is every single time i asked for the phone she asked me back about my dog. She asked my permission to give my dog to someone else and keep pushing me and make me think for the best for Rico (in case you don't know, it's my dog's name). If you dont have dogs you probably wont understand, but it's hard for me. I cried a lot, and haven't make a choice until now. The dog's still mine and i still think it's the best altho i can't take him to my new house. So after a while i stop asking for it because i don't want her to ask about my dog. I wanted it so bad and i keep praying. And one day there's a fight on my family and my mom haven't got home yet because she's still on church. My sister has a fight with my dad, i cried a lot. I dont want you to know about the problem cause it's none of your business. All i wanted you to know is the fight is so big. Then at 12am (p.s. its in the middle of the night) my mom got home. I'm still crying, i couldn't sleep, keep thinking about the problem, i pray and pray and wish that everything will be okay. Then my mom went to my room and give me a BlackBerry Bold. it was supposed to be a surprise for me and my sister, but the fight happened. I supposed to be very happy or maybe screaming if i'm not sad but i give no reaction at all that time. I put it away and charged it and go back to my bed and them tears just wont stop (and it's not because im happy). My mom slept with me that day cause she knows i'm still so sad about what happened with my dad and my sister. and the next day i bought my phone to school and finally get too excited about it, i finally have it after all those months where i've been waiting patiently, THERE IS IT THE FIRST AND THE MOST IMPORTANT REASON OF ALL. You know it's not like i asked for it today and got it tomorrow. I need a full (or maybe over) 5 months. That's why i'm VERY damn excited about it. I use it because i love it. I'm not showing off, because if i really wanna show off, i should've do it since the first day i got it, I should say or maybe screaming to everyone like "HEEYY I GOT A NEW PHONE AND ITS BLACKBERRY BOLD!!!" but no, i didn't. I only say that to my close friends because they know how i wanted it so bad. And then the next reason why i listen to music a lot is because Music is my soul and i couldn't live without it. You know my idol is a musician and i adore her and her music and her band music. I keep checking on new music about anyone (i like) on the internet too, that's why i open my phone a lot. I don't want to be the last to know about new news about BEP's new album (which will come it in june 9th) and people used to ask me about it and they want the songs so i send it to them, that is the third reason why i open my phone a lot.
I hope now you understand and please, if you still hate me just say it to my face. You know, i hate Fakers who start being friendly to people just because you want to use them for your own good. And again, i'm not trying to start a fight. It's only an opinion and some reasons to tell because i think you don't even know me or my personality. If you mature enough you should've been understand.
xx.